not much like you'd recall

I do want you to understand.

My hipster darling, internet.

Wriggling around in my 30's skin.

I am lingering in my long kiss.

Tonight?

If you asked me how my life is. It is filled with drama. Insecurities.

My husband passes by me like a stranger. A simple "i'm going to bed."

A simple "i hate you."

How did i get here. How have i become the plague of human spirit when i spend my days playing red rover and blowing sad noses.

Posted by drowninginkids at 11:37 PM Permalink

Comments (13)

Siobhan

Oh Jess, please don't go away.

Posted by Siobhan | June 14, 2007 3:40 AM

schmutzie

Jess, as little comfort as it may be, know that you are deeply cared for.

Posted by schmutzie | June 14, 2007 7:08 AM

Debbie

PLEASE find a therapist that makes you work to help yourself - are you taking your meds? Do you need more? different? It does not have to be this way - help yourself for your husband's and children's sake. THEY LOVE YOU! YOU CAN DO IT!

Posted by Debbie | June 14, 2007 7:32 AM

Carole

People who don't even know you are worried about you this morning. Please let us know you are okay.

Posted by Carole | June 14, 2007 7:58 AM

Kelly

I have been reading your story for so long and laughed and cried. You are such a great woman and have so much to look forward to. Please don't keep this a secret. Talk to your husband. Call someone. Call 911. Please Jess. Your kids need you.

Posted by Kelly | June 14, 2007 8:07 AM

jess

Dear everybody,

I am fine.

Thanks for your thoughts. A little drama, that's all.

Posted by jess | June 14, 2007 9:16 AM

lyn

See how we are worrying ? - we fellow mums care about you.
Just sending lots of love,
xxx
lyn

Posted by lyn | June 14, 2007 2:19 PM

julia Cho

i understand...

Posted by julia Cho | June 14, 2007 5:49 PM

kerflop

I'm glad you are fine. Though that is what my mom says whenever things really aren't, so given the circumstances, I'm still worried about you.

xoxo

Posted by kerflop | June 14, 2007 6:42 PM

Col

Delurking to say please be strong. So worried about you this morning. Your husband is reacting....which is so much better than indifference.
Regardless of the drama, your kids love and look up to you. Remember that - when you feel like throwing in the towel.

Posted by Col | June 14, 2007 7:22 PM

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