wax on/wax off

Life has been a rollercoaster. In a good way.

I have been working hard on fixing things. Making this life worth living. For me. I've got the kid thing down. I know they are happy. Criticism of my parenting skills will not bother me. They are happy - sometimes bored, sometimes sad, sometimes very noisy - but, at the end of every single day i know they are happy. Having me as their mother may be difficult at times, but i pour everything i have into this mommy gig.

Now i need to do the same for me.

In the past week shane and i have spent long, difficult moments talking about our relationship. A week ago i was ready to move out. Even finding a house to rent. Then we started talking about all the problems with our marriage. We agreed to go to counseling. We agreed that we still loved each other. We agreed this is worth fixing. Or, at least, trying to fix.

In all that talking we have become happy again. The problems are still there. But owning up to them. Not sweeping them under the carpet. Saying the words out loud. Doing those things has made the mountain seem a little bit more like a mole hill.

You can fix what's not broken.

This weekend in an effort to push my body to it's limit i will be playing nine softball games in two days at our annual tournament. Then softball will be over for another year.

This is my very favourite video ever made. It looks exactly how my weekend will look. Except for the rain.