It has been a bit of a rough week, a rough patch. It's bound to happen. Things have gone from friendly to courteous. I suppose it was imminent, but losing a friend is hard.
I find myself calling on strangers to help me solve dilemmas because i have no one to chat to. I sit in the evenings stressing about money and car purchases and what the hell do i do moments.
It's the little things we miss right?
It's the big things too. Not single parenting. That's the big one. The five days i have the kids are full of chaos and rushing and oh my god we're late again! The days are long when i work in the evenings and they are long for the kids too. School and homework and babysitters. They have the weekends to recharge, but not with me. I'm so anxious for summer to get here so that we can spend the days together. It's so close, but the four weeks to get there are daunting and large.
In september they will all be in school all day. No more back and forth and back and forth. My last four weeks with one of them home with me most of the day. Another milestone passing. There aren't many more. Graduations and boyfriends and girlfriends.
I am feeling a little melancholy. A little what the hell happened here? A little stressed. But, this too shall pass. It always does. It's just the getting to there part.
Subscribe RSS
Comments