a siren song i didn't understand

Mondo Beyondo has started and it is so very challenging. Challenging in a terrifying and beautiful way.

Putting pen to paper, not fingers to keyboard. There is something so different about that. In a strange way it is so much harder to be truthful and honest with yourself in ink. A piece of paper that is so fleeting, yet so permanent. It is like i am tattooing these words on my arm.

My dreams, my values, people that inspire me, finding hope to fill my empty heart. The part of my heart that is not filled by the great love that is my children. The very small list of people whom i cherish.

To change my life. To chase my dreams, whatever they may be.

Mondo has come at the perfect time. After years of challenges and loss and sickness i am ready to begin again. To take all the good and perfect things and let the rest fall on the path that is behind me. I am ready to be fresh faced and excited by the second half of my life.