It has been a time of loss and grief on the internet. I am so saddened by the losses of both Maddie and Thalon. Beyond words and appreciating my abundant gifts at the same time.

I took several hours and moments over the past few days to enjoy my children, and also to try and capture a little bit more of them on video.

a walk in the park from jess howard on Vimeo.

I got a Flip from Santa

a drowninginkids christmas from jess howard on Vimeo.

Every night i send parker, eliza and toby to bed several hours before their actual bedtime. They spend this time playing games.

This is how it started tonight:

Shane bet me that i wouldn't share this video with you. Why not?

You all want to see my ass right?

Plus, a little bit of cute parker?

I knew it!

Just so you know, this was at 5:30 today. I was not in the fetal position.

enjoy!